Lately I get a lot of “what if” moments in my head. What if here, and what if there. Why is it so hard to just let go and be in the moment? Why can’t we just trust life? Why? We all know that thinking about the future is always going to make us worry. I guess our egos are programmed this way - to keep on talking, when we want a quiet time…a clear mind… when we just want to trust life.
The most amazing moments are the ones that are not planned, they say. Which is true. And they don’t come by while thinking how’s the future going to be like. They just come… and that is where you find yourself … trusting life. You go with that moment. You catch the flow and just let go. Freeing.
And I want that, I want exactly that. To feel the moment. To let go and just trust it. Whatever is going to be, is going to be. To not care so much about the materialistic things, but make more way for the un-materialistic. The ones that matter in a heart and make you grow. Make you learn.
I want to trust. Set myself into an adventure. Book a ticket, go on a trip and just go, and not think about if there are events/projects that I’m going to miss back home. Because I will and also - on the other hand - I am missing an adventure that is out there. Adventure that might give me stories for life, might teach me something, might give me something to feed my imagination, make me grow inside … that’s where I might find myself.
Somewhere unexpected. Somewhere unknown. Life happens outside of the comfort zone, I read somewhere. This is when you can get the most stories out. Stories I want to share. Stories with which I want to build new stories. There is so much out there that I want to taste, feel, see, express… and here I am left with a big thing called – fear of letting go. Letting myself go and letting the projects that I’m afraid of losing, go.
I'm like a mountain. Stubborn like a rock. There are some good things about it, but the bad ones are the ones that are eating me sometimes. Especially when there are some big decisions coming up. I guess I’m going to have to let my mountain become a wave and just trust the moon (life) taking it to the shore.
I’ve never been so hungry for exploring the new grounds. Hungry for trusting life. Hungry for letting go and just breathe into life. Be spontaneous.
I NEED stories, not in the books, but real stories. Sunrises and sunsets of the world, beauty of the milky way on a night sky, touch of seven seas and kiss of the lands.
Knowledge and wisdom of the tradition for the experience of the today. The now.
Yes, I want to grow… within!
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