I dream A LOT. When I wake up, I usually remember my dreams, so if I have time I write them down.
Of course there are days/nights when I don't remember anything. But sometimes tiny visions of dreams pop into my head late in the afternoon, or during meditation.
That's exactly what happened today. I remembered someone mentioned Herman Hesse's book Siddhartha in my dreams tonight. What could that mean? I don't know.
It's been a while since I read that book, so I guess I am going to have to read it again if it has any deeper meanings to my surreal situations in the land of my dreams.
I'm pretty sure I'll understand this book a bit differently now than years ago when I first read it.
I remember when I first read Little Prince. I was just a kid and reading that book was a school necessity, so it didn't bring me anything. Maybe just a joy of reading it SO FAST, cause it's so thin and letters are big. (I was never into books that my teachers said I must read, even though I absolutely LOVE BOOKS).
Anyways, years after that... I've read it again. This time it was not a school necessity, it just happened to be sitting near me. Even though I was holding the same book, everything about it was different. Actually it was me, I was different. And I felt it so hard I started crying. I felt so shocked how could I not see the beauty of this story back then. I still remember that day like it was yesterday.
It's good to read certain things again and again, of course with long pauses in between years. The books we are holding and the stories we are reading throughout the years - they are all the same. It's just us. We change.
A lot of times certain books come to me very unexpectedly, very unplanned. Like somebody's trying to tell me something. And usually they do. I've had a lot of these strange coincidences, that I don't take them as a coincidence anymore. These are little dots in my story.
Every person, every book, every situation that comes to me spontaneously (not planned) - means something.
Wisdom, story, a chance to grow, a chance to move to another direction (the RIGHT direction), a chance to teach us something,... When you are ready, things just start happening >> "When the student is ready, the teacher will appear."
We like to have things planned. Everything on a schedule. But by far the best things and the most powerful ones happen UNPLANNED.
Speaking of unplanned. This photograph is my autoportrait that I did yesterday. It happened so spontaneous. Nothing was planned. I came back home after yoga class, thinking about all my tensions that I have in my body, especially in my back. With yoga I've learned that all the emotions in our bodies are also written in our muscles, tissues,... basically our whole bodies. I was a bit scared that I am not going to handle all the hard work of letting all my tensions go. Or be persistent enough to NOT GIVE UP.
So I spontaneously turned on my camera and... time stopped. Everything just started happening. I was in the zone. It was just me, the evening and Robyn's "Monument" blasting out of the speakers - on repeat (I know creepy, but can't help it).
When I finished and checked the photos... this picture was the one that happen to catch my attention. If you look closely at the centre of my back you can see a bit of upward-pointing triangle (well I see it).
The upward-pointing triangle is also alchemical symbol of the element of fire. I've read somewhere that this symbol, "signifies upward mobility, forward motion, rising flames and aspirations to solar embodiment (in both literal and philosophical senses). To move into the energy of fire is to be utterly consumed, transformed and lifted out of limitation".
I know I am a bit of a dreamer, but I find this spontaneous, unplanned picture a good reason to just KEEP MOVING FORWARD.
To stay strong and practice, persist, breathe,... and let go.
Let it all flow. Spontaneously..
Love.
“I want to learn from myself, want to be my student, want to get to know myself, the secret of Siddhartha.”
― Hermann Hesse, Siddhartha
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